Mahadeva Bodies

In the past couple of years I seem to have developed, or become aware of, another level of “body” that is quite interesting, and which makes the most sense to me (i.e., it’s the one where I’m most comfortable). I find myself with a large body with the “central sun” at the heart, and a belly full of blue stars, the Mahadeva that I mention below. The light of the central sun shines onto and through the blue stars, which creates a field around and among the stars which contains all of creation that is generated through the blue stars. All of everything takes place inside this large body, including everything that I’ve written about the central sun—the central sun is the sun at the heart of this body ( I now find that everything that I wrote in 2000 to my friend Cecilia, who was scorching her sheets with Kundalini heat, is now happening inside my body, my large body, and is mirrored in my physical body as well). If I focus on my lower abdomen, thighs, legs, and feet, I see all the creatures of creation: humans, birds, ducks, snakes, insects, plants, rocks, everything.

Ardhanarishvara

I find within the past six months or so that I can initiate this state by simply focusing on my own physical body and following it back: i.e., first there’s my physical body, then I shift so that “Roger” and everything that “Roger” contains, body, emotions, thoughts, etc, are on my lower right side, with every female that “Roger” has known on my left side. I then step back from that and find all males on my lower right side and all females on my lower left side. (For the most part I always experience myself as being half male and half female: males in the right side and females in the left.) If I step back once again, I become Ardhanarishvara. And yet I’m still Pure Presence and Pure Consciousness, and relate to this “newest” body as Presence and Consciousness in the same manner that I relate to any and all bodies. And I see this newest body manifesting in the field of Pure Presence and Pure Consciousness of myself.

Mahadeva

If I step back from Ardhanarishvara, I usually find myself in a large blue body with a large blue column above it (“column” isn’t the right word here), and then I move back further into an even larger multi-headed blue body, perhaps five heads, all with columns above the heads. The best representation I’ve seen of this body-state are the pictures and especially the statues of Mahadeva– –the pictures I’ve seen of the Mahadeva statues in the Elephanta Caves are probably the best representation of this state. If I move back farther still, I’m simply pure presence looking at the Mahadeva body being illuminated by the central sun, and I, as pure presence, am the light of that sun. From this state I can move into and around the body of Mahadeva: the Mahadeva body is full of blue stars, blue pearls, and the light of the central sun energizes the blue stars and causes them to start vibrating. The sound of the vibration is OM. As a result of the vibration, creation takes place in the “spaces” in between the blue stars: the blue stars contain potentials for anything and everything that could ever exist: all polarities, and all creation, all time and space, take place in the space in between the blue stars in the body of Mahadeva.